Kismet (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} kismetrose) wrote,@ 2008-05-08 02:27:00 |
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The Silver Strand
I've been studying like mad for a while now, since my big test is on Saturday. I've been reading between 150 to 250 pages a day most days, striving to read carefully and taking notes all the while. I've been having mishmash dreams in which my brain plays with all of the information I've shoved into it during the day, turning images around like puzzle pieces to see how they'll fit. They usually don't. I've had a few stress nightmares but they haven't been nearly as bad as other periods, for which I'm grateful. But I've also been taking a little time for myself to relax, or what passes for relaxation in my current state. I took yesterday off because I just couldn't read any more. Today, I took extra time to breathe before diving in.
In the middle of my studies I got up for a little break and while washing my hands, I saw a silver glint in my hair. That's right. I noticed my first gray hair today. On one hand, it's in a sea of my usual dark brown, medium brown, and red mixture that's pretty thick, so it isn't easy to spot. I thought I'd seen it a few times before but could never single it out. Today I managed to get it on its own - a long strand that's silver at the top and brown toward the bottom. I gaped at it. I had my boyfriend come in to check and make sure I wasn't seeing a blonde-ish hair or something. Of course, he laughed at me, since he started seeing grey early. I called my mother to tell her and she laughed, probably more due to my reaction than anything else. I've been too superstitious to pull it out.
I know it sounds ridiculous, but it was a bit of a shock. My mental image of myself is dominated by my dark hair and to think that one day it might be different, without my intervention, is difficult. After a bit of reading, I know I shouldn't be too worried. Grey hair is based on genetics and while people in my family do get gray in their hair, it tends to come later in life and does not take over completely. It also tends to look good. But it's still a little disconcerting and I hope that in a few days, I'll stop looking for it.
I've been studying like mad for a while now, since my big test is on Saturday. I've been reading between 150 to 250 pages a day most days, striving to read carefully and taking notes all the while. I've been having mishmash dreams in which my brain plays with all of the information I've shoved into it during the day, turning images around like puzzle pieces to see how they'll fit. They usually don't. I've had a few stress nightmares but they haven't been nearly as bad as other periods, for which I'm grateful. But I've also been taking a little time for myself to relax, or what passes for relaxation in my current state. I took yesterday off because I just couldn't read any more. Today, I took extra time to breathe before diving in.
In the middle of my studies I got up for a little break and while washing my hands, I saw a silver glint in my hair. That's right. I noticed my first gray hair today. On one hand, it's in a sea of my usual dark brown, medium brown, and red mixture that's pretty thick, so it isn't easy to spot. I thought I'd seen it a few times before but could never single it out. Today I managed to get it on its own - a long strand that's silver at the top and brown toward the bottom. I gaped at it. I had my boyfriend come in to check and make sure I wasn't seeing a blonde-ish hair or something. Of course, he laughed at me, since he started seeing grey early. I called my mother to tell her and she laughed, probably more due to my reaction than anything else. I've been too superstitious to pull it out.
I know it sounds ridiculous, but it was a bit of a shock. My mental image of myself is dominated by my dark hair and to think that one day it might be different, without my intervention, is difficult. After a bit of reading, I know I shouldn't be too worried. Grey hair is based on genetics and while people in my family do get gray in their hair, it tends to come later in life and does not take over completely. It also tends to look good. But it's still a little disconcerting and I hope that in a few days, I'll stop looking for it.
